Craving Balance

Confession: I am an odd mix.

I love goal setting, making lists, being disciplined, accomplishing tasks and being organized.

On the other hand, you will often find me messy, disorganized, scatter-brained, and procrastinating on several projects.

The conflict between these two categories is terrible. My "together" side wants it all together, as soon as possible. If it can't be done, I simply resign myself to the "not together" side -

put off those projects, leave the to-do's for another day, shove the mess in a corner, make some tea, and waste a couple hours on mindless internet surfing.

All or nothing, yes siree.

At least tonight it kindof got to me and I had to sort through baskets and clean a closet and scrub the toilet and answer emails and fill out a time-consuming but important form and organize my book shelves.

Organizing and cleaning is what I do when I'm putting off the more important things. Top on my list right now is to create a plan - and follow it - for some more in-depth Bible study, memorization, and reading.

But maybe I'll think about that tomorrow...

Tell me, do you have an inward control-freak-organizer and a laid-back-slacker doing battle with each other, or am I alone here?

If you're in my club, how do you find balance?


Anna said...

Oh my goodness, yes. You described me perfectly.

BILL HUNT said...

Yes, you are trying to be a super-woman. But don't be so hard on yourself. Look at all you do get done! Only Jesus is perfect!

Jennifer said...

I am the exact same way. It's a constant battle. I'm never sure which Jennifer is going to win. :)